Excerpt from “My Lovedance”
By the summer of 2008, I got reconnected to my old way of communicating with spirit. Something I called conversations with God as a kid transformed that summer into Q&A. I got a brand-new journal and dedicated it to conversations with my higher self and began on July 11th 2008 my divine Q&A…
Q: What do I release?
A: Your fear
I didn’t like that answer, so I asked the question differently…
Q: What do I sacrifice in my life to make room for abundance?
A: Your Fear
Hmm. My Higher Self was being evasive…
Q: What am I afraid of?
A: Not being good enough to complete your mission
Not being your truth
Not returning home
Leaving behind what you love…
Q: I must release all this??
A: Just the fear. The rest will fall into place. Have faith—easy for you. Do not be discouraged by others nor by life. All obstacles are tests that strengthen your character. Ask for help—you are surrounded by those willing to be of assistance if you but ask. Don’t push them away with your fear.
Wow! She really knew me!
Q: So much I know, but am not yet. When will I be?
A: You are complete—yihidra
Still no practical answers. Seems like spirit communicates in riddles. Same with my old gurus, not much was given in clear steps, but rather comfort in general. I tried again…
Q: Ok, so what human step must I take right now?
A: Be Joy. Love All. When the time is ripe you shall receive the full rich harvest.
Q: So the time is not yet right?
A: The fall is the time to harvest.
Q: Hmm. What now?
A: Enjoy the time you have with your loved ones.
Q: But I love too much…
A: Not possible. You do take on too much. Others are not your responsibility. Free will is theirs. You are here to enlighten with the model of your life, your being. They may not wake up. They may not follow. They may choose darkness. Let them go…
And from then on, I was reconnected with my higher self.
Many more questions were answered. Yet the most unique aspect of this journal is my conversations with my Higher Self were the reflections upon looking at insights given in the past and living the present circumstance. For the Divine, there is no Time. Only the human me defines herself by the past, the present and the future, yet all exist in the Now.
My higher-self identified herself as …I am You. Divinely connected. Remembering all that was, all that is, all that will be. I am Timeless. You are me in earthbound form. I am you in heavenly connection.